My first one

Why am I writing a blog is not clear to me? I have a habbit of writing on the paper and tearing it. These are my negetive thoughts.
Thoughts which just shut my ability to see things in clear perspective! Infact I just can't reason to myself. I have come across the idea of retaining what I write, to read it later when I can think clearly(by the way I have a strong believe that I have abundance of common sense, it just leaves me in the hour of such difficult times, is another story :)-). So the partial reason of blogging.
Now how good it is to put it in the blog is again something I am not very sure of. Anyway my hope is to get some feel good factor by putting by negetive thoughts out and may be get response from fellow humans who also have similar thoughts(atleast shall feel I am not the only one who stray into the dark side some times :)).
May be I shall discover myself and feel comfortable and happy with person I am.