How to live in peace with the darker side in you? How does one handle self in the time when the dark normally hidden somewhere in you spreads in the head? I am struggling to figure out what exactly is the contribution of the dark part of me and what comes out of habit. Some times I behave in a way that defies not only common sense but any sense ! Feeling guilty, sad and bad over the self behaviour during such moments is how I end up after the show ! I think my biggest problem is I do not accept myself as I am and instead expect self to have ten on ten in everything I do, which I do not get as I am a very strict self invigilator :(. It does not look like I am getting any clarity on the issue. Looks like more sessions with paper, pen and self are needed !
